Rising Talent (True love kiss)

   

       Well I like to write, it is one of my hobbies. People often called it poetry but I just call it life, its things I see in life, things that goes trough my life, its life it self. Well I don’t like or I don’t know how to talk about it so here one of the many things I have written, I hope you enjoy it and comment on it. It is called True love kiss.

True Love Kiss

 

We are all waiting, we are all expecting

It’s that moment; it’s that instant where everything stops

When you can’t hold it anymore

It’s that first time, it’s that first kiss

It all starts with a glimpse

A catch of the eye, eye and eye lock together

In a forever eternity and that’s when you know

Your true love has taken form

The first time your hands touch, you can feel it

Even when they are still apart

When they are reaching for each other

You can feel it, the tingling sensation that travels your body

And reaches your heart, a spark, your heart in the hand

The singing sensation, the forever dance, where you and I will dance

Like the burning log reaches the sky, it’s the glowing ashes dancing with the wind

It is my heart touching yours

The insane feeling, the insane desperation of forever love

Your body and mine are reaching for each other

And you just want to let go, let your body take control

Cuss your heart its screaming GO!

When you know it, when you let it

When it happens you just know you will never let go

It’s the work of destiny

It’s the help of fate, it just need a little faith

And you close the deal with the touch of the lips

The most powerful of all

Your true loves kiss

 

-2006-

 

   Well that’s once of them I hope you enjoyed it, if you want to read more I have a couple more here in this link, there are some in Spanish too.

http://www.talentdatabase.com/channels/20-Writing/profiles/1057701-Zarishi?utm_source=member_badge&utm_medium=html
 

Times up…

Do you believe in card reading?

numbers, astrological signs, premonitions, future reading or things of the sort?

 what if they are real? if not?

     When I was in high school a friend of mine used to go on saying he could read cards, and he did for a few. One day I went to him and asked him if he would do it for me, if he would read them for me. I don’t remember all the things he said, but the thing I never forgot was what he said about love. He told me “You will never find a relationship, you will find something close, one someone close but after that, there is nothing more”. Till today I have never have a relationship, as I wrote before I don’t settle for less of what  I dream, of my high expectations.

    But what if my times up…? What if I already wasted that someone close, that close to relationship? what if its all gone. Sometimes (mostly when I see chick flicks) I think that my time for meeting that forever love, was to be in high school, where I should have met my high school sweetheart. Maybe I am over thinking this, like always. But I keep dating and I don’t find that forever love… that breath away thing people talk about. I cant find to find the one who will keep me in a magic spell, the one and only one for me. The more time that goes the more I feel that my time was up long ago and that my high school friend was right. I am still expecting to be prove wrong… but till then will I always feel that my times up?

Have you ever felt that your times up?

   

Suit up

     Well I am working with Primerica (its under the umbrella of citi group) and well because its buisness and financial they have a dress code which you have to go to the meetings in dress cloth and a tie or a suit. So I wanted to have a my very own suit. It was a nice day to go shopping at the largest mall here Plaza las Americas. I must say I have an expensive taste in cloth, and I don’t care much looking at the price tags. Anyways I went all around the place, and I couldnt find one I loved, the one made for me, I went to Brooks Brothers where I found some shirts and the tie, It was funny because the guy helping me was flirting and  (well till then I didnt know how to do a tie knot so he helped me) so when he was doing the knot I stare at him and got all red… well it was funny jejej , then I went to the Banana, Gap, Armani (which I hate the store… its just not for me) and still no sign of the ideal suit… then I found it, I was sitting down thinking where could I go, then I looked up and there it was Zara. I always said that they made the most awesome suits ever, why did I though of it before, there I found the suit. I must say it was a fun day and its always nice to go shopping.

     I believe I am gorgeous in a suit… here are some pics I took when I was on my way to a meeting. Its the first time I put on a suit since… wow I dont remember when was the last time,not even for my high school graduation. Meh well I was on my way to a meeting and I made my mom take some pics of me.

Here are some of the pics:

 

 

Proud parent of a gay son… Gay parents of a proud son.

What would you do if your kid was gay?

Would you care, support and love your kid? or would you forget all about that kid?

   I was talking about it with my mom… and she said to me “I dont mind a gay son”, she let me know she will always be proud of me no matter what, no matter what I will always be her son. It was nice, its reassuring hearing your parents tell you that, it lets you know you will never fail them, it gives you a feeling of hope. I am greatful to have a mother like her, to know she will always stand by my side, to know she will always love me. I know many parents of homosexuals who deny their existence, parents who abuse of their kids, physically and mentaly, just because he or she is gay. If you think about it, imagine how homosexuals would feel even at their home, we could use the abuse of black people and racism, they could feel unsecured on the streets but never at their homes, or feel fear of their family (of course there is always the exception but its not the norm), homosexual feel fear everywhere. I am not here to judge thous who are homophobic or parents who deny their kids, but instead of thinking of the shame, or God’s wrath, instead of judging others I suggest start thinking of how the others feel, start thinking that God is the only one allow to judge. God said love each other and dont judge maybe we should start letting people live their life and helping thous in need.

  But as we kept on talking about homosexuality, love, parent ship and other stuff, it came the topic of gays and being parents. She told me gays wouldn’t be able to take care of kids, thats not normal, and it would create some sort of emotional turnboil that will affect the kids. And well she is human and I mean wow a mother who would not care about a homosexual son it is a blessing but it kind of shocked me, you dont care if I am gay, bi or a transsexual but you do care if a Gay person wants to have kids? why?. She kept on trying to explain to me how she though it would affect the kid, having same sex parents, looking at those kind of lifestyle. But I think ”Dont every marriage, single parents, homosexual, heterosexual, PEOPLE at the end, everyone has problems?” I mean in some way or the other life it self marks us and affect us. Everywhere and every kind of person has trouble and they still marry and have kids. Here is something I found doing research on Gay parenting: Why gay marriage should be illegal.

1. Homosexuality is not natural, much like eyeglasses, polyester, and birth control are not natural.
2. Heterosexual marriages are valid because they produce children. Infertile couples and old people cannot get legally married because the world needs more children.
3. Obviously gay parents will raise gay children because straight parents only raise straight children.
4. Straight marriage will be less meaningful, since Britney Spears’s 55-hour just-for-fun marriage was meaningful.
5. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and it hasn’t changed at all: women are property, Blacks can’t marry Whites, and divorce is illegal.
6. Gay marriage should be decided by the people, not the courts, because the majority-elected legislatures, not courts, have historically protected the rights of minorities.
7. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are always imposed on the entire country. That’s why we only have one religion in America.
8. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people makes you tall.
9. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage license.
10. Children can never succeed without both male and female role models at home. That’s why single parents are forbidden to raise children.
11. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and we could never adapt to new social norms because we haven’t adapted to cars or longer lifespans.
12. Civil unions, providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name are better, because a “separate but equal” institution is always constitutional. Separate schools for African-Americans worked just as well as separate marriages will for gays & lesbians.

          (From: http://grove.ufl.edu/~ggsa/gaymarriage.html )

     I think homosexual parents would do better than heterosexual, because they give it for granted, something they think they could do when ever, it is something that maybe they dont appreciate the joy and bless of being parents, thats why they abuse and dont take good care of their kids. I believe gay parents would be grateful and appreciate much more the bless of having kids something heterosexual have had for granted, at the end if a homosexuals have kid,which most of them will want to do, they are not gay because they want to avoid getting pregnant or getting someone pregnant. This is another point people think about, just because they are homosexual DONT mean they dont want a family and kids, if they have kids is because they really want to, they want to give love to a child, to be able to be there for them, to be able to love them and make them better people for this world. To support and to love, what more reason to be a parent that that.

For information on studies of homosexual parenting and how it affects the kids, here they have a bit of information http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/LGBT_parenting#Fitness_of_parents or do some search on google there is alot of information.

Never settle for less

What happens when you decide to give up on something you want, what happen when you settle down?

what happen if you settle for less?

       Lets start by saying that I am no spoil brat, and I dont plan on doing, things should be work for, work hard for the things you want because when you do the satisfaction is greater that what you imagine, like a bath after a day of work or cleaning. 

      One of the things I keep hearing from friends and people I have date is “You will never find love with such high expectations”, and to be honest I have come close to believe its true. I am not here to talk about true love or of relationships because of that I must say I have no experience, which some times I feel my time is up long ago (I guess Ill talk about that in another occasion).

     I think its a sickness which is spreading way to fast, comfort and I am not talking about its verb or the money confort zone, I am talking about being conform with what ever you can find. Around me people in weeks or few month of dating come to the realization that maybe they will not find anything better, and it may not be what they dream of when kids “but what the hell” and they commit, after years they notice the big mistake or they just keep thinking “what if…” or “well…” and stuff of the sort, they not necessarily need to be unhappy but its not what they used to dream about. People say “Honey stop looking, when the time is right the person will come to you, just be patient and wait” but how can I get an A on a test without studying? I mean you dont hear people saying “If it meant to be an A it will be if you study or not”… I say “Never give up, never stop searching” but the difference is searching and being desperate, because when you get to that point you get blind, and you just settle for less. I know I have great potential (conceited much? jejej) its like I tell my friends ” If I could find a friend like you, who is always there for me in my times of need, if I found a friend like you which I had high expectations of trust and commitment as a friend why cant I expect the same or more of someone who’s going to share my life? If I could find friends like you I can find someone worth my time” I believe the trick part is on never giving up, your eyes on the goal, and never giving in to that sickness of conformity.

      Happiness is on working hard, dreaming high and fighting for what you want. Either if it is money, work, love, friendship, one of them, all of them, just work hard, dont conform but ALWAYS be grateful for what you have, look around you got a lot even if you dont notice it. When you work for gold you get gold, you get what you work for. So if you want BIG work BIGGER and dont give up when the times seems hard, because when they do and you get trough them it means your BIG is around the corner… but never ever settle for less.

Am I a bad person?

What if you find your self thinking about that person, an old love, some one you gave up because it was in a relationship or it wasn’t the correct time. 

What if you find your self in front of some old love? What do you do, what do you think?

       It was long ago when I met this one… and I think its the reason I am doing blogging lol *roll eyes*. But it is one of those person you meet and you click… it is meant to be for the least a friendship. I am a person who believe in love and hopes to find it someday, but no one seems good enough for me. I have high standars, I am no God and I am sure not perfect, but I wont settle in for less (but about that later). Today it happened to me, after years, I met with that person face to face… what do you? I just hi, short hug “we should talk” and kept on walking, is one of those persons you keep the phone number and email address and wonder why, you never use them, but you cant seem to trow it away.

         But it struck me… I kept on thinking the few minutes I was there, face-to-face, and minutes after the realization that my only concern was not hows the person, how are things going, the family, friends, study nothing of the sort, my concern and only question in mind  was “I wonder if they broke up?” and I actually was hopping they did, not with bad intentions, I mean after my realization I felt horrible and I wished they would still be together (I actually did from the heart) and I felt inhuman, I wouldn’t like people wishing that on me, and I wish them all the good and luck, they seemed happy together one of those couples that seems like they will never break up, one of those relationships you see and you envy but not in a bad way, in the way that you think “I wish I had someone like that, I wish that when I meet someone I will feel the same”.

     But the same question aroused my mind, this time in wonder of curiosity, “did they break up?”… and I try to block the thought… I did not want to think that, why would they, they wouldnt, did they? and there was no way around the question, it always came back… no good way of thinking it without feeling horrible, an then it came to mind… am I bad person? am I that selfish, what if they did and the person knew this? what would come to mind?  do I deserve the person after this…

I guess we are only humans, but is this a reazon or is this just a form an excuse to ease my mind?

A restless mind.

     Well I was inspired in this indirectly by my mistress Ivy (Edit: Goddess Ivy I knew that) and her “chubby” as she call him (Edit: its “hubby), my best friend Carlos. This is my first blog ever and its kind of dedicated to them, my inspiration.

    I start with this calling it a restless mind, and even thou people might say “well of course the mind dont rest, I mean we do but it dont.” I go beyond this. I call it restless because I exceed things, I observe, I think and over think things, I am overly curious for things people may not take notice or dont give much thoughts of. Because of this I dont think of my self Superior or different, I feel normal, a normal teenager. But my eyes are thous of a kid, full of curiosity and excitement, where everything is bigger and wonderful. My mind is restless not for common thoughts or common agendas (it has of that too of course) but I challenge my brain, my though, my soul into something much more, onto things much bigger.