I was at the midnight release of the Nintendo 3DS system and I was number 4, I am number 4!

With the 3DS I got the Rayman 3D which is a remake of Rayman 2, but nether the less my favorite Rayman game. Aside from being hooked with the game, going through it one more time, this time in 3D, I’ve been hooked on the mini-games the 3DS has to offer. The AR with the fishing and its 2 target practice make a great to do on your free time, and if you can’t find time, fishing while on the can makes a great use of your time… beat that magazines!

Also,  the Face Raiders has been my new addiction playing even in work, taking pic of my co-workers to fight their faces from the flying-bots who stole them. And when I couldn’t find a new face I would grab my friends pic from the internet or even celebrities like Janet Jackson or Lord Voldemort. I’m sure that if someone saw me through the door they would see a kid with a Nintendo on hand and going in circles in its desk-chair, I felt like a pilot for star-wars! XD

Finally the Mii system, where you can create your Miis from Scratch or from Pics. They have added a Mii plaza where people’s Miis’ can be collected from walking around with your 3DS if someone else has one, and later use this characters to go on adventures or collect puzzle-pieces they bring with them from other people’s 3DS. And with the new encoding system to upload other people’s Mii, it makes it much more amazing. I have found several cool Miis around the internet, such as the triforce-gang from Hyrule and the power-puff girls!

And if you want to have me in your Mii too, here’s the code! Post me yours and I will have you with me as well!

Have you ever had that feeling you have seen or experience things that are happening to you?

Have you ever been thinking about someone when they call, maybe someone who you haven’t talk to in years?

Feeling something will happen, before it does?

What about being able to finish other people sentences or knowing what they will say? Knowing the flip of the coin, when the light will change or where a moving object will land or end?

Would you call it coincidence or just patterns…

In life I’m sure a lot of people has had this feelings and situation, I know I have ever since I was a kid. My mom is a big believer in things like being able to see the future kind of things and she has always told me she thought I had “the gift”, for many things I said as a kid, she often told me she had the same “gift” as a kid herself and that things still happened to her.

I am a scientist so for me things must be repeatable in order to prove it, and you have to do experiments in order to prove them. But there is always the kid/nerd/gamer/geek/human/whatever you want to call it part of my heart who believe in things without needing experiments. So in a way I am always conflicted about this topic, but things has happened in my life that makes me wonder…

Being able to tell when a light might change, knowing the lines or even in movies I have never seen, knowing where the door of the metro will open, knowing what people will say and the feeling Deja Vu. It’s not like I have a vision or hear them in my head… it just like I know. But all this things can be answer by observable patterns… is it?

I always remember about a particular dream I had about me and my best friend. It was about being in a house of a friend of his, I didn’t know who it was, drinking a fruity shake and goofing around and there was a conversation. After having the dream I told him about it and we laugh, we often had dreams about each other and we would share and laugh, nothing abnormal about that. Right now I don’t remember how long it went between the dream and the event but I met a friend of his and we were at her house and she made us strawberry shakes, we were goofing on the floor and the conversation was held… as soon as the conversation ended I had a feeling of Deja Vu, with wide-eyed I look at him to tell him I had dreamed that when I realized he realized it too and before I said anything he told me “You told me about this”.

This winter I was in a car accident on my way home but on the way I knew I was going to have an accident, of course at the time I didn’t knew this for I hadn’t seen the news, but I was in the middle of a horrible snow storm, of course the weather was bad, that I knew and there were many cars buried in snow and along the way I chatted with a couple of friends and I was telling them the conditions and I was complaining about people not knowing how to drive and then joking that because I was complaining about them the next one would be me. So this might not seem like a very supernatural thing, bad weather + reckless driving = accident! But I can’t forget that feeling of knowing… maybe it was an instinct or my worried mind seeing the weather conditions.

About a week ago I had a dream where I talked to my mom in the future and some of the details right now seems like they are mixed from current event in my life, but in the dream I knew it was from the future for the way she told me she couldn’t tell me much for fear I might change things.

So I cant help but wonder about this things and the reality of it…

Are these thing only in my mind?

I have to say there are many things yet to be explained in life

So… what do you think?

After getting my degree I was a Non-degree Ph.D/ Neuroscience intern at Massachusetts, doing research and taking classes. Thinking if that was the place for me.

Its been 6 months since I left that world.

I’ve left classes behind only doing research for the NIMH.

Its been 6 months and my GradSchoolClock is ticking…

I need to start making decisions…

I need to start figuring things out.

The countdown begins and there is too much to do.

Figure out what I want to do my Ph.D in…

Neuroscience!

Figure out what I want to research about…

Neurodegeneration?!

Figure out which school you want to apply…

Umm… Yale? and… ???

The clock started ticking and my stress started raising…

Figure things out

Update your credentials, letters and statements

Fill out application and send required documents

Only 10 months to go.

For me it has always been the undying question “what am I doing with my life?”

But for the first time it’s not as much as that question but the question “What am I doing for my birthday and with who?”

For a long time I had never had to worry about my birthday celebration because as long as I remember I’ve always had someone planning something for me. Since the beginning of time it was my mother, who used to “surprise” us at school with a cake all through elementary school, a tradition that later turned into going for dinner and to pick up a video game when I went to middle school and bringing a cake to school was too embarrassing. When I was in highschool I was blessed to be in a boarding school so I got to celebrate my birthday with all my friends, and it was not embarrassing because they were the ones that would put it together. In college I had an array of friends and they always had different ideas, dinner, movies, cakes. I had a very special one when one of my best friend dedicated to me the song “Youll be in my heart”. Also, one of my favorite traditions between my friends were to try and surprise each other with a birthday party… to this day it still makes me laugh to think about it and as I write this I cant help but smile.

I always remember this one time when my best friend came to my house to pick me up as always, we were going to his house to play video games which he said was going to be just us because everyone else had left; it was an usual weekend a couple of weeks before my real birthday. When he got to my house I was already on comfortable clothe, some shorts and a t-shirt. We got to talking and out of the blue he said “why don’t we go to the movies?”, this was not him at all and it was near my birthday so my brain started ticking. So logically I asked “So… I should get dress?” we were still supposed to go by his house and the movie didn’t start for a while, but he still said “yes” but I was a bit hesitant so I kept pushing questions and I guess he could see my brain in action so he stopped himself and said “never mind, you can dress later”. So we got into his car and drove away, me in shorts and a t-shirt, I guess I was expecting him not to let me go away like that, but he let me get into the car like that so for a couple of minutes I thought – maybe this isn’t it – but I couldn’t help but have that feeling that something was up, so I asked him “You wouldn’t let me go into my birthday inappropriately dressed… right?!?!” his reply being “Of course not”. At that time I kind of knew, when we got to his house (supposedly empty), everything was dark form the outside but I couldn’t push a feeling that there were people in the house, so I turn around and I told him “there are people in your house” and he said “My housemates left”. When we got inside there was a cake lit and everyone was there to surprise me… me in my pj’s.

When I left to Massachusetts I had friends who came with me, those friends who became my family were able to surprise me by having lunch with me and then immersing themselves in each of their lab; later surprising me in my house with a party that appear out of thin air, I was in my room getting dress to go to dinner with a friend and when I go out into the kitchen, there was a party in my house just for me!

Tomorrow is my birthday and my friends are everywhere but here. For the first time I moved alone and to this day the friends I’ve made are all away in conferences or in vacation.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I could even use an embarrassing surprise by my mom in my work place, just to have a cake.

Tomorrow is my birthday and the usual question is there… what am I doing with my life, where will I be and what will I do this year! But tomorrow I will be hunted by the question… who can I call this day to have dinner with!

We will see how it turns out, but honestly… I’m scared!

The new year has brought many opportunities and with it a possibility, for the first time I had someone to kiss at midnight in New Years Eve, tacky I know, but something I always wanted to do, to have. But that was only a highlight of a roller coaster of days, where people has come and go; Where illusions has been shattered and disappointment striked once again. But I can take from this good memories and experiences, it reminds me I still have somewhat of a heart, that I might be more sensitive than I give myself credit for and that possibilities that go will be replaced by those that will come… that those that go makes us stronger and those that come remind us that we can and we will always move on. The only thing missing now is finding that right person for me,  to kiss every new years eve and to share a life with, which I’m sure I will find if I keep fighting for what I want!

On a good note, my hard work is paying off. After many days feeling lost and wondering where I’m going with my life, I started wondering and doubting my work, I must admit I’m a bit bored of the routines of most days, but there are some days that I get to do something new which reignite the spark of interest and love I have for what I do. On this particular day a flame was ignited for after discussing my work in a meeting I was told that a paper was going to be written and I was to be in the paper authorship as secondary or third! My first scientific paper from the NIH and I might be 2nd or 3rd author, now that’s a deli! The only thing missing now is being completely sure if this is what I want, something I have to define by the end of this year, which I’m sure I will have a better perspective by then.

It’s a new year only a couple of days old and so much has happened, in a good note I got to have my mother visit me and we took a road trip all the way to GA to see my two brothers who are stationed there. It was a great Xmas weekend, I hadn’t realized how much I had missed them until I had them there, but life moves on and so do I. On my way back, alone for my mother stayed back, I got caught up in a very bad snow storm in which I lost control of my car and crashed it, luckily I am ok but my car was left behind in VA for repairs (Thank God for insurance). After that many unexpected money issues has come up but I havent stopped eating and I’m coming out of those things little by little. The only thing missing now is seeing the family I chose for myself, my friends, which I’m sure I will see soon.

Now I’m writing!

Now, Fear is growing and I find myself writing.

Writing, an outlet of some sort for there are things I can’t say… we are not allowed to say. In this case I just don’t want to say.

Writing, my unlucky outlet of destruction for I find that when I pour my feelings and immortalize them into words, they leave… they all leave.

Heres a meditation on the end of the year and the beginning of a new one that I will write in 3 parts: Family, Work and Possibilities!

Now I hope things will just work out, instead of leaving me, making me stronger… I dont want them to leave.

So today NABloPoMo ends for me.

This is the last post and I must say I’m glad I’m done. During the process of the month I’ve had my ups and down, where I have felt creative and where I have felt lazy.

I’ve been excited to see my blog has had a new record in visits during a day and a month, but it has cost me creativity… which makes me wonder if its worth it.

Do you want to visit a good blog or a sloppy one… Whats the point of having lots of visits if they wont come back?

I’m glad I did this, it was a good experience but it was more than tiring.

I’m glad I did this…
I’m glad its over…
I don’t know if I will be doing it again next year!

As many of you can see already my post have been thinner and thinner, and I feel they don’t have substance like they used too…

By mid November I was already squeezed but now I’m more than squeezed… I’m dry!

2 more post and I can go back to writing only when my muse strikes…

2 more post and its over…

1 more post to go!