Do you believe in card reading?
numbers, astrological signs, premonitions, future reading or things of the sort?
what if they are real? if not?
When I was in high school a friend of mine used to go on saying he could read cards, and he did for a few. One day I went to him and asked him if he would do it for me, if he would read them for me. I don’t remember all the things he said, but the thing I never forgot was what he said about love. He told me “You will never find a relationship, you will find something close, one someone close but after that, there is nothing more”. Till today I have never have a relationship, as I wrote before I don’t settle for less of what I dream, of my high expectations.
But what if my times up…? What if I already wasted that someone close, that close to relationship? what if its all gone. Sometimes (mostly when I see chick flicks) I think that my time for meeting that forever love, was to be in high school, where I should have met my high school sweetheart. Maybe I am over thinking this, like always. But I keep dating and I don’t find that forever love… that breath away thing people talk about. I cant find to find the one who will keep me in a magic spell, the one and only one for me. The more time that goes the more I feel that my time was up long ago and that my high school friend was right. I am still expecting to be prove wrong… but till then will I always feel that my times up?
Have you ever felt that your times up?
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Hun, high schol is SO overrated.
High school is where raging hormones are unleashed, not where true love is born. Sure, there are the exceptions, but seriously, how often does that happen?
To me the one I dream of is just that, the one from my dreams, because dreams are selfish. True love is not selfish.
What if we follow our dreams for all the wrong reasons? What if we have the right reasons to follow the wrong dream?
Love at first sight, breath taking moments, the whole cliché, is something that not only drives us to look for someone better, but may also keep us from someone we may have already found. It’s a double-edged sword that no matter which side cuts you, you lose. You either lose the chance of finding or the chance of losing. Life’s fucked up, I tell you!
I don’t think my time’s up. Not by a long shot.